I worry. A lot.
I know what it is like to have my brain go into overdrive and focus on minute details and not on the things that I should really be focusing on.
I’ve had panic attacks. I’ve lain in bed struggling to breathe as I cry my eyes out when moments before I was fine.
This is my life.
Some days are better than others. Some days are good and some days barely a moment goes by when I can’t feel the heaviness of my heart and I need to excuse myself from the world.
This is what I do when I can’t seem to exist in the world:
- Take a bath
- Drink an excessive amount of tea
- Read something happy and light
- Watch a rom-com or funny movie
- Eat chocolate or candy
- Let myself cry
All these things help me to relax, take my mind off the spiraling thoughts within, and let me refocus.
My days don’t always go as I expect them to, and my mind and body don’t always behave and work together, but I have learned how best to move forward and sometimes that takes a little time.
I deserve that time, and you deserve that time.